Assalamualaikum Cinta,
Akan ku ubah langit biru,
Menjadi bait rindu,
Akan ku ubah cinta ini,
Menjadi cinta sejati,
Akan ku ubah hati ini,
Menjadi milik mu seorang,
Akan ku ubah cerita ini,
Menjadi cerita antara kau dan aku,
Mualaikumsalam Rindu,
elizeberth
After 3 month waiting for the result ……….today is that day….but then…well, I don’t expect more or less because since the first day I let my mind, and thought ready on whatever result whether pass or fail because I believe in destiny. I believe if it is mine then it will be mine and if it is not mine, how much effort and struggle @ whatever way that I use to get it I will never get it.
Every day I wonder whether I am pass or fail and a minute pass by days by weeks and months. Life need to move on. It is not just me waiting for the result but my whole family and they really want and wish me to pass but today I make them fell disappointed, frustrated and upset because I FAIL. I am feel so disappointed not because I fail but because I make my whole family upset especially my parents’. I don’t want they feel like that but I did.
My Mom, she doesn’t believe that I fail and she ask me a few more time about it and my answer is still the same “I FAIL”, and when the first time I told her about the result she think that I am lying. She does not believe that I fail and then she ask again and again.
But one think that I still believe with all of my heart that “I believe God plans is better than my plans. Semoga Allah mengantikan rezeki yang lebih baik dari ini, InsayaAllah…Amin, kerana saya percaya rancangan tuhan lebih baik daripada rancangan saya.
it is quiet boring…here are nothing i can do here, no friends..well it doesn’t means i do not have a friends but all of them are living far away from me and we are just chat with each other by using whatsaaps, and FB…after graduating last year i come back to my village and do nothing. i try to find and apply for a job but there are still no luck on it and i’m still struggle to get a job…hahahha wish me a luck to get a job.
emmm.. i am just thinking, well i am not just thinking but always think about it that if i have a money i will do a lot of think and what i really want is to travel all around the world, or if travel is free ….yeah…i will travel from state to another state, travel from a country to another country, learn about a lot of thing such as culture,language, food, and so much more and the most important is to learn and know the other people perspective toward something which can make me to open my mind, if before this i might thing about it negatively then through other people opinion i can open my mind and accept it based on their way of thinking. bcoz everyone have their own thinking in viewing certain thing.
when talking about learn a new language, i consider to learn a Spanish and Chinese language. i think that both of this language is interesting and the Spanish language is sound sexy when i am hear them speak in movie and when i am listen to the music..hahahha..this attract me to learn that language.
Love to dreaming,
Elizeberth
i forget how to be happy
i forget what make me happy
i forget how it feel,
how it looks,
how it sounds,
i just know how to hate you
i just remember the bitter memories
but i just try to forget about it
because i want to know
how it feel of being happy
Goals are like breathing, once you give up, there’s no hope left
Goals is something that everyone should have and hold to achieve what you want in life
when i was woke up this morning i am cry out loud, it so much pain/ hurt in my hearts. it was becoz of a dream that remind me about the past event that happen to me. Becoz of that past event/ situation i lost my trust toward friendships, i don’t trust people easily anymore, i lost my best friends….may be “best friends” is not a suitable word to describe our friendships bcoz it maybe just what i am think of who she is for me but i am not her best friends actually, it sound like i am a fool to think that she is my best friend ever after and at the end i know who she is. But i am glad that i know who she really is rather being fooled forever and ever. We are being a friend since we are 16 years old until that situation happen which is during our second years at university. it is 6 years of friendship….it is a long friendship right? but a long friendship doesn’t mean anything if it break our heart and just bring a pain/hurt to both side. i think i am so kind even after being fooled i still friend with her but i make a promise to my self i will never be her BEST friend anymore even we are sill friend. right now and right after that situation we are no longer share our secret to each other like what we did before it. just like the quote below :
  
“Trust is like a vase.. once it’s broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.” |
I guess i am strong enough
I sure i can cope with that
I think i can face it calmly
I think i can forget about it
I was wrong about it
I was wrong about everything
I can’t sleep well at night
I always has a nightmare
I try to close my eyes
I try not to think about it
I pretend that has never happen
I try imagine something else
I am afraid of past experience
I am afraid it will repeated
I am afraid to think of it
I try hard to erase it from my memory
BUT…
[it was happen on 9/12/2014 and when i am think about it, it still hurt me until today]
The moon is sleeping,
The sky is awake,
The sun is glowing,
The bird is singing,
The dark turn to bright,
The new day is coming,
The new journey is starting,
The new history is begin,
The sun is smiling,
The heart is blossom,
The world is sporting,
The dream come true….
…and i just wanna to say good morning and have a nice day…
THE POEM & THE VOICE OF MY HEART 